I know that I am lucky. I have said as much more
or less every time this fund has been mentioned.
This thing was certainly not my idea, and as I
have tried to make crystal clear, I am not really
comfortable with it at all, even though I am
touched and grateful.

That being said, though I am sure you did not mean
it to be taken this way, I now feel terrible
enough that I do not want to take any of it. I
will be closing down this fund as soon as I can.

I should never have even mentioned the damage to
anyone in the first place. That way this entire
mess could have been avoided. And shame on me for
allowing it to happen. This is my problem, not
anyone else's.