"I'm sorry if my purchase of the cel
has upset anyone."
Huh? You got it a legit way, there's no need to 
apologize. When fighting over something in legit 
ways, the winner is right and the loser is wrong.
And you know, that was a lot of cash. With that 
cash saved, she can buy something even better. I 
realized that when I was outbid on the blushing 
Zelgadiss on Mandarake :) Aaaaaaw all the cels I 
won by losing him!

And before any of you say "Look who's talking" 
and point to a certain contest: exactly that is 
why I am talking. Because meanwhile, I'm awake 
again. I pulled the same one frickin hell of a 
big, fat ridiculous shit and any "I wasn't 
myself when I said that"-excuses, as true as 
they may be, don't change the facts. I can 
understand why the contest owner wasn't 
interested in my apologies, cuz my behvaiour 
just sucked too damn hard.

I'm embarrassed about the shit I pulled and so I 
know pretty well how shitty the starter of this 
thread's gonna feel once they clear their head 
and re-read it...
I don't know who it is and I don't even know 
Lady Zatara, I just remember her name. So this 
is directed to whoever's behind it.

I know it's hard to accept defeat on something 
you really really wanted to win. I know one 
feels like cursing and blaming and destroying 
other's joy about winning what you lost. But 
some cursing should be done silently. I'm 
extremely sad that I grossed the contest owner 
out of ever dealing with me again and that I 
hurt her which wasn't my intention, and I wish I 
could undo what I did. But all I can do is to a) 
change my attitude, b) be a more fearsome 
opponent should there ever be a next time and c) 
if I lose again, take it out on my punching bag.
I suggest the same to the thread starter, no 
matter who it is.

So, whoever you are, admit defeat and find a 
cool way to spend the money you saved! You WILL 
find one.