I can't answer any of your questions cuz I'm in 
the same posistion, the difference with me though 
is that I like it this way. I'm not trying to get 
anywhere, I'm too shy to make waves, I didn't 
come here to make friends, though it would like 
to have them :) and I'm not worried about any 
kind of collector status. I like to think I've 
never pissed anyone here off, and maybe you 
haven't pissed anyone off either ^^; I think 
haruna had a good point when it comes to 
communication. Also, maybe other people are shy 
too. I've gotten very few emails myself, and have 
sent even less because I can't seem to come out 
of my shell ^^; I think I just like to keep to 
myself. 

All I can tell is you kick and scream to your 
hearts content until you feel better, and so what 
if someone doesn't like it ;) I do understand 
where your coming from, but don't let the 
attention your getting or lack thereof determine 
your worth in this community :)