the sweetest story ive ever heared. Thank you 
for sharing it!  You are one of the people that 
make this hobby so much fun...^_^
  rekka, I can completely Identify with your 
heartbreak/dilemma...there is one time I wished 
I had just "taken a chance" and I didn't. Now 
its too late.
  like doris day sang (at least I think it was 
doris day) Que sera sera..
   
whatever you choose Rekka, I hope you feel genki 
soon.