I have been feeling this exact way lately, which
is why I havent been really cheery here for
awhile. I have been collecting for about a year
and a half now...and all of a sudden the joy has
dissappeared. When I first started, my job was
nice and lazy, things were going sooo easy. Now,
Im at a new job that has recently been turned
upside down. Since I moved over here I've been
busy non-stop, like I never leave the computer.
Whenever I do leave, all I can think about is "Oh
man, Im missing an update right now!" or "I
really need to go back to work and finish x
project!" I dont have any money to go out, and I
dont get outside anymore, which I really hate. I
also never have money to take trips. I dont see
my family but on holidays now, and I used to go
all the time. ;_; I also have my dad 2 hours
away from me and I dont even have the time or
money to drive to see him either.
Over the last year I have found myself generally
unhappy with who I have become. I find I stress
out much more, and much easier since I've started
collecting. I have a muscle disorder that is
greatly affected by stress and sleep, so it's
been extra painful since I dont get any sleep
(waiting for updates). I also cant enjoy anime
as much, because I think about "Oh, I need to go
online and see if there's any cels!" I
originally only got back into the hobby for a
couple of cels, but ended up staying. Now that
my job has become very unstable, it's forcing me
to stop. Its depressing in general, because now
I dont buy cels, and I STILL cant spend to go out
and have fun :(.
Anyways, it sounds like you need to take a
vacation from all the things you know. Try some
new things, go to some new places around town,
meet some people. Perhaps even try a new, more
active hobby, like yoga or crafts. I have been
wanting to try yoga for a long time! It's very
stress relieving. My cel is Nuriko (duh) when
he's giving Taka a pep talk in the OVAs. Taka is
feeling depressed about what to do with his life,
and he's not sure who he really is. Nuri is a
good friend who's there with advice, not to
mention a cute smile! So, I hope things start to
look up for you, and please never think you're
alone with these feelings. I've been in this
boat many times, and am right now. I also have
some friends who feel this way. I think it's
just a down point in the world right now, after
such a bad time last year. Things will get
better, stay genki! |