I know how you're feeling- I went through it about 
4 months ago.
I was buying far, far too much, just pissing away 
tons of money, to the point of having so many 
cels, I could never enjoy them all, and not enough 
money to have any other kinds of fun.
You have to find a point of equilibrium, you have 
to reach a point of balance where you can be 
comfortable with it all. There's no need to 
utterly abandon it, but you can become more 
reasonable.
I realized that by having so many cels, it 
"diluted" my collection, and made my favorites 
feel less special because they were lost in such a 
big pile of stuff. I felt overwhelmed- it sounds 
like you're in the place I was.
I made a change.
I sold a bunch of cels. I raised my standards. Now 
I don't buy just any cel that comes along, instead 
I look at potential candidates and think "is this 
cel *really* one I want to drop serious bank on?" 
I'd say 9 times out of 10 now the answer is no. I 
also don't spend the exhorbitant amounts I used to 
on individual cels- I hang back and wait, the 
decent deals do come along now and then. Too many 
cels seem vastly overpriced lately, that's a great 
deterrent too. Instead I enjoy browsing ebay, YJ, 
and the various seller's sites and "windowshop". I 
still buy on occasion, but what I buy feels more 
special now. I put more of my energy into 
preservation of what I have- all of my cels are 
now neatly matted and bagged, and I used archival 
supplies and gloves to clean them as I store them.
(I keep them in gallery-style photo boxes)It makes 
my collection so much more attracrive for showing 
to people, and it also helps in my selecting what 
I do buy- if it's not nice enough to mat, I'm not 
buying it.
I'm much happier now, I have what I think is a 
nicer collection than before, and I have money for 
other things- and when I *do* buy a cel, I look 
more forward to it's arrival, and I cherish it 
more. Don't give up hope and let collecting get 
you down, I think we all go through what you're 
going through at some point.
Blair