I'm not sure of your age, but as stated in the 
earlier messages...as much as it hurts things DO 
get better!!
  I'm gonna tell ya 2 little stories...
First Story...
I was married when I was 18. I loved David with 
my whole being. He left me after 6 months and I 
DID try suicide. I tried many times, am only here 
now by the grace of God. I really didn't see that 
life was worth living. I felt like that for 2 or 
3 years. And then I just went numbs for a couple 
more...

Picture above pretty much sums up how I felt for 
a very LONG Time...

Second story...
  About 5 years after David left me I met a man 
named Ray. I fell in love with him pretty much 
immediately. He thought of me as a FRIEND only. 
He had a crush on my best friend. Believe it or 
not I set them up as a couple. I pined over him 
in private but never tried to "get him". At that 
time I learned what it REALLY meant to LOVE! My 
mother had always said that it takes a lot more 
love to let someone go then to chase them. 
  Anyway, while I did nothing to separate them I 
did "pray". This may be weird but I BELIEVED in 
my heart that Ray & I were meant to be together! 
I prayed every night, and went to see with a 
vision of us together as a couple EVERY NIGHT! 
Within 2 years he & my friend broke up and now WE 
have been married for 12 YEARS. He's still my 
BEST friend!!
   So don't give up but do NOT demean yourself or 
hurt yourself for him!

Picture below shows how I STILL feel about my 
husband...