Dear Rekka,
  I too know the pain of losing a loved pet. And 
when you have to chose to end their life to be 
merciful it is all the harder!! I know! I had 
lost a cat when I was young she had been with me 
for as long as I could remember and she passed 
away when I was 11. I thought I would never be 
able to love again. And for 7 years I wasn't 
really able to give my heart completely to 
another pet. I had a few that I loved but not 
with my heart and soul.
  Then when I was 18 I was having health problems 
and the doctor suggested to my parents that I get 
a cat. He called it "pet therapy" he said that 
pet a cat and loving it had been proven to speed 
healing process. 
  Well my dad took me to the pet store. I 
thought "Okay I'll pick one but I won't love it 
too much" I picked up this lonely little kitten 
off by itself. It didn't meow or purr it just 
looked at me and was quivering in fear. My dad 
wanted me to get a "healthier & friendly looking 
kitty" but when I looked into her eyes I was 
LOST. It's very hard to put into words but it was 
like she was meant to be with me. 
  I had her for 12 years in that time the only 
other person she ever really allowed near her was 
my husband...She jumped in his lap the first time 
she met him. It was like she knew he was meant to 
be part of "our family". 
 Eight years ago she was in such bad shape that I 
had no choice but to end her life. It was the 
hardest thing I have ever done! I chose to have 
her cremated and her ashes now reside on my 
fireplace. I think of her everyday.

Here is a poem I found that I LOVE...

Four Feet In Heaven
Your favorite chair is vacant now.
No eager purrs to greet me,
No softly padded paws to run
Ecstatically to meet me.

No coaking rubs, no plaintive cry
Will say it's time for feeding-
I've put away your bowl
And all the things you won't be needing.

But I will miss you, little friend,
For I could never measure
The happiness you brought to me,
The comfort and the pleasure.

And since God put you here to share
In earthly joy and sorrow,
I'm sure there'll be a place for you
In Heaven's bright tomorrow!


  My heart goes out to you.
Best Wishes,
Sandra