I am deeply touched by everyone's sympathy and 
believe me, it means the world to me right now.

I want to thank everyone for your well-wishes and 
sharing their experiences.  Your replies have 
been so valuable to me that I felt compelled to 
reply to each and everyone of them, to show that 
each of your individual responses was important.

I also want to apologize to Yann for creating 
this long thread.  There have been much longer 
threads, I am sure though, and they probably were 
not very useful and/or created a lot of 
negativity.  With the advice and experiences 
shared on this thread, I hope it served a 
beneficial purpose to others besides myself.

Finally, I want to apologize to everyone if my 
story depressed you.  I appreciate your thoughts 
and feelings, but please don't let me bog you 
down.  I'll be alright and I want all of you not 
to worry about me.

Happiness can be contagious and I only want to 
visit a happy forum.

DOMO ARIGATO!