Where does that desire for more..."better" cels
come from? For me, it started when I visited
other people's galleries. I suddenly felt that my
cels were utterly inadequate. Call it jealousy,
call it competition, call it whatever you
want...but it ultimately led to such a strong
sense of *need* that I spent more than I should
have on cels. I lost sight of *why* I started
collecting in the first place....
Collecting became stressful...Everyday was
"What'd I miss?"..."Where'd they get
*that*??"..."check ebay"..."check keep
track"..."check the forum for sale posts"...
I would a cel in the mail...but before I could
frame it and truely admire it, I was back on the
endless cycle of "check keep track"... It finally
got too much.
I'd stop doing other things I loved...reading
manga...drawing...watching anime. I admit that
I'm competitive by nature, but I had led myself
astray...collecting isn't about a race...isn't a
game to be won. So what if people would envy or
"ooohh and ahhh" over it...*would they envy the
lifestyle I lived to get such a gallery??...or
would they look at me with pity?
Err...anyway...I gotta go catch a movie. Hope
you feel better afterwards...know that you are not
alone...not the first...and sadly not the last to
feel overwhelmed with this hobby. Like everyone
said, just step back and re-asses everything.
^_^
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