truer words have never been spoken..except for 
that one message I got in a fortune cookie once.
"you have just eaten a cookie" which was pretty 
damned true.
  
hmm..Im not very competitive as a collector 
anymore. I didn't give up the hobby..just the 
competition. Other people have nicer sites, 
bigger collections, nicer cels...but I know they 
can't love them anymore than I love mine. 

Ive been at it long enough to know The cels I 
missed were great ones, but theres always another 
one or a different one, or if you wait long 
enough the same one.
 
It sucks your not having any fun though...hobbies 
are supposed to be fun.
  Good-luck in future, enjoy those roses while 
you can.