I'm no sore loser. When I'm mad about something I 
curse and I insult and if it wasn't through the 
web, I'd use brute force, too (throwing tables, 
etc). Both are missing in my post if you read 
again ^__^
No, actually, I got a bit overconfident lately, 
thinking I was good enough for my own standards. 
When Kazuya Tsurumaki said I was good at it (and 
he's a famous pro) I thought "Whoohoo!" but 
meanwhile, I know: the Japanese ALWAYS praise, as 
though not to cause embarrassment... I probably 
said it out of pity.
It's NOW that I'm being realistic again. It 
already appeared creepy to me: WHY am I no longer 
tearing up drawings and deleting gigabites of own 
work from the PC whilst shredding "HDTM" books 
and stuff? 
All that positive change and confidence was too 
sudden to be true, and now I'm BACK TO REALITY!
You really got it all wrong, Heather^^;;; Sorry, 
but really, the only thing I'm really good at is 
wasting time and money.

And another thing I should mention is that it was 
no damn surprise: I ALWAYS lose contests since 
I'm no longer a stupid child. When I was still 
one, I won every single contest I entered. And 
suddenly, all I win are those silly unrewarded 
Animexx contests. They can't possibly count! 
Losing this contest as well, was only a final 
confirmation, not a hit to the head. 

But you should know that I indeed do NOT like 
drawing things specified by others unless a 
reward is smiling my way: money, prizes, 
publishing,... So you can see why I hate losing 
contests when the entry took me more than 1 
minute? That's not Lia's fault, and I'm NOT 
blaming her! I still love her & her art (no 
intentions to marry you though ^_~). I just can't 
take the truth sometimes, that's another 
characteristic treat in artists: they're often 
oversensitive crybabies. Accept it, I won't 
change. I already cried only because my dearest 
person takes heroin. Any sane person wouldn't 
even care. I'm a  wet hadcerchief, poke me and I 
tear. That's MY mistake. I am not blaming it on 
anyone else.

If there would be anything for me to be flustered 
about in the result of the contest, it'd be "HOW 
can somebody who barely lets the cat play any 
major part and uses a humour flat like a carpet, 
win?!". That's not meant as an offense to the 
artist! I just didn't even smile about the pic, 
but humour depends on the individual really. The 
rival I was really scared of and who should have 
been amongst the winners IMO, was the aquarium 
pic. The pose and expression of the cat where 
hilarious :)

Anyways, I'm off to buy a friend for Boromir (my 
guinea pig).
Anna