Has it ever happened to anyone where, upon 
finding a cel at a dealer's site, the cel speaks 
to you in a very deep way...but you don't have 
the deep pockets to match? Where you want it 
badly, but are in a bind as it is? ::sigh:: That 
just happened to me...I'm not into "impulse 
spending" very much, as all it does is create 
problems later on, but often I find I love the 
cels that "speak to me" more than I love someo f 
my "wishlist" or "dream" cels...I love them 
because they make me recall a scene or character, 
but don't always evoke the same amount of 
emotion. They speak to me in a different way, in 
a nostalgic way, but don't always strike the same 
chord.

Sorry, just felt like venting. I was sorting 
through the pickings of the Usagi's House update, 
looking through the Ayashi no Ceres section, not 
thinking I would find anything worth it as 
everything nice was already bought. But then I 
saw ayashi-df24, a cel of Yuuhi (or, whom I am 
assuming is Yuuhi, because of the eyes...I 
haven't seen this entire anime yet...) with a gun 
to his mouth, and it really just caught me. The 
first thought for me was that it looked like he 
was getting ready to put the gun in his mouth, 
and it caught me, because I have been recently 
depressed. Not suicidal, mind you, but I find 
wierd, silly thoughts come to mind when one is 
depressed that don't when one is sane. This cel 
just spoke to me in many ways, the emotion, the 
tears, the intense look of pain and betrayal...it 
echoes feelings I've been having, and looking at 
the picture makes me feel, well, less lonely. 
Even if it is only a fictional character, it's 
nice to have a reminder that I'm not the only one 
this is happening to.

If I had the money, the price wouldn't matter. 
This cel, when I look at it, means something to 
me because of the feelings I've already invested 
in it. But, alas, I suffer a fate common to this 
hobby; empty wallet syndrome. And so now I'm just 
staring and hoping that everyone will bypass that 
cel for a few weeks until I've earned enough 
money to buy it, but somehow I doubt it.

Here's to hoping.

-Misha

P.S. - If you do happen to buy him, please give 
him a good home, and please e-mail me as I would 
love to have a bigger scan.