Im am so glad I am not alone, thanks for the 
enlightening post Diva!

Oiy, last year, when I was not collecting, I had  
a ton of spending money.  I could go to the mall, 
and shop til I dropped, or buy a new TV, or a new 
entertainmnt center, whatever I wanted.  Now, 
since Ive gotten back into this hobby...I find 
that I am broke as hell, worried over money to 
pay bills, worried over who I made mad at 
whatever cel I bought that they wanted, wanting 
so bad to be a part of a community, and be a part 
of the "big collectors" circle, and wanting 
everone to oooh and ahhh over my gallery like 
they do other's galleries....and why?  Not like 
anyone cares, or ever will.  Heh, my cel 
collection's not gonna help me get a promotion at 
work...OR buy new bedroom furniture.

Before I started this hobby back up, I promised 
myself only to buy from one show, a show which I 
truly do adore, and will forever.  The characters 
just mean so much to me, and the art just blows 
me away.  But....due to anger and frustration, I 
found myself getting sucked into that deep, dark 
place where addiction lies....buying things 
simply because it's desireable, or to make others 
jealous, or to impress other collectors.  A very 
bad place to be indeed.  I thought about it long 
and hard all last week, and decided that I will 
go back to the prime reason I started back 
up...that one show that I love, and only 
characters that I love from that show, which are 
two, and they are hard to find.  I have found my 
life has decreased in quality very much since I 
started this up again.  Too much typing hurts my 
hands, stressing over Ebay, and losing at the 
last moment, staying up too late to beat everyone 
else to the updates...only to find there's 
nothing you want anyways.  People yelling at me, 
or others and telling them they have no right to 
be here.  Then, you try and get stuff everyone 
else wants so you can try and trade later, or 
resell it. 

Ahhhh, me, I most likely will not be doing this 
but for another year or so.  I like FY, I'll 
always keep an eye out for those cels, but 
everything else, no way.  I forgot why I came 
back to the hobby, and I got trapped in the bad 
part of it. ::gets out shovel:: Time to dig 
myself out!!