A diamond in the rough--- Or a piece of plastic 
with paint on it. The red pill or the blue pill, 
sir? 

Take your pick, fantasy or reality. color or 
black and white? A song sung with a melody, or a 
static buzz in your ear? A drive along the coast, 
oI decided to post this just for the record. If 
you see my cel gallery taking some hits and 
losses over the next few months please understand 
that I am not SIcK', a turn-coat, or have had 
some other malady! I am only trying to adapt and 
adjust to changing circumstances outside of 
my "collecting control". There is nothing wrong 
with your monitor. But, I am enterning another 
new dimension entirely, outside of HFV (Hyper-
Future-Vision), or my cel gallery =) 

I love this collection. It was forged with much 
time, sweat,energy, effort, good luck. good 
people, networking and communications, lack of 
sleep and much money -- And sometimes by many 
other means for the last almost 4 years =)

I did this all while supporting my family of 
three, by myself, and provind all of the other 
neccessities of life that include the basics, 
along with, good cheer and companionship. Raising 
a child and supporting a family is no small task. 
It becomes harder over time matching this along 
with collecting the cels that I like. It gets 
expensive. It has been expensive for a long time.
If I were single, then I would feel no 
boundaries. That is not the case, and of course, 
for me family comes first. At least most of the 
time. So, that has to be all of the time now. I 
have to move on. All of the married people can 
feel me I am sure. Those of you that have spouses 
that share and promote this hobby are awesome and 
I am very happy for you. 

For me I get no home support or love for this 
hobby, but have instead found a lot of .."counter 
proposals". 

See, I'm being nice for once.

Well, after a long time with this struggle, it 
has finally gotten to me. It's okay though, this 
is just one hobby of mine, that will take a blow.

And, of course, I have higher priorities now and 
the future to look out for, so with these real 
things in mind, things will bound to change. And 
my hobby, has become a target.

I guess I should have stuck to camping or fishing.
This hobby is a very singular passion. If it is 
not appreciated it is difficult to share with 
others. 

It is kind of an anti-"general public"-social 
lifestyle.It upsets those gregarious and fun-
loving friends and family around me, as they 
insist that I do something else instead with my 
time and money. Of course, I have told them where 
to go jump. However, I choose to live with them 
and not plastic. They win by far.

They are partially correct, no doubt. Like any 
addiction. It is good to step away from it for a 
while and make sure that things are under control.
Of course, this is my feeble attempt to justify 
their ignorance of one of my current passions, 
but so be it. It is harder in reverse.

So, if you seem that I have begun to detach 
myself, it is only because of the changes I see 
coming in the new year of 2005. I will try to 
hold on to the precious list that I have in my 
head, but it too may be subject to scrutiny from 
time to time. 

So, I will not be sad. It so happens I have a lot 
to be thankful for. I just don't like leaving 
this hobby and giving up cels. I have seen many 
collectors go down this road. Many selling off 
their entire collections in a flash. I find it 
hard to let go for some reason or another. Is 
that strange? I may be left with no alternative. 
But, I do still feel "IT" and I am happy to share 
that feeling with you.. even if I do close up 
shop! 
r a drive to work? Choose your 
metaphor..carefully 

=)